Crazy New Year

I'm going to keep this short because I need to get to bed. Last night was crazy, in a bad way. We had a very nice chinese new year dinner and afterwards was going to drink a little and chat in Natalie's room. That was all fine, till I started drinking Tequila. I don't know what happened. At one point I stopped being me, I became Crazy Girl who tried to Down everything in her reach. Thank goodness everyone hid the bottles from me. And they put me to bed.

But then. No one knows what happened. Somehow in my room I managed to hit my mouth on something, so now my lip is swollen and purple, and one tooth is like banged inwards. Don't worry, I managed to push it back into place this morning. Painful, but it's ok. And I have no idea of this happening... All I remember is waking up this morning thinking how did I get to my bed. And then feeling dried blood on my face.

So lots of ÅNGEST (to continue on Clara's entry). I'm happy nothing worse happened, but it's very very very very scary how you can just ZONE OUT and not be present. Has never happened before and will never happen again. People throw up, I don't apparently... And never drink tequila again. It fucks you up!

(Please don't worry about me after reading this entry. I will be OK. I'm just a bit in shock as well...)

belle and sebastian

Yaaaaaaay. I love concerts. I love BELLE AND SEBASTIAN!!!!!!!!

They are the best. Just like the sound on cd, except they were much better live! I never thought that that kind of music could be good at concerts, but it was amazing. Like you could dance and just feel the beauty of it sooooo much. The slow songs worked as well... I didn't want it to end!! Actually they left the stage, and came back. When they left I was so sad cause they didn't play "Sleep the Clock Around" which was my favorite. But then they came back and played one more song... and the LAST SONG was... exactly. My favorite. And I have so happy. So happy. So happy. It was the best ending EVER.

They just have so many songs... definetly worth to go to their concert again! Also, it was wonderful to get off campus. I like cities. I like feeling better and no longer sick. Everything is much better today =)

"Fox in the Snow" (another great song)
... ...Kid in the snow, way to go
It only happens once a year
It only happens once a lifetime
Make the most of it
Second just to being born
Second to dying to
What else would you do?... ...

just when i was getting better...

Today was my free day, woke up and felt better and was like yay I'm going to sort out my life, catch up with all the work I missed, do lots of things... then started feeling stomach ache. Ran to bathroom, and had like diarrhea. Walked back to room, and suddenly felt very faint, and everything went black. Had to find my way through blackness to collapse on my bed, in between I hit my head on my closet. I slept...

Woke up again. This time was very hungry, so I walked to kitchen. By the time I got there I was so tired and nauseous had to sit down. Didn't manage to get any food, just some tea... stumbled back to my room. Was very confounded at this new sickness. So I read my antibiotics instructions and saw: SIDEFFFECTS--diarrhea, nausea, vomiting. Oh dear. So, the whole point of taking medecine was to make me feel better, instead has now reversed and I feel worse. I managed to call the health centre and have an appointment with my doc again this afternoon. But the point is.

I can't handle this mentally anymore. If I don't get better soon I will be like totally broken down and have like no will to live anymore. Honestly, it's EXHAUSTING. It takes like fight power to go "yeah, today i'm gonna!" and I've been trying and trying... I JUST WANT TO GET WELL!!!!! Feels like I haven't been talking about anything except my sickness for the past weeks. My term is only 10 weeks, and there's that much work to be done in that time, and I've been sick for 2. So it's like. What's the point???

And p.s. I think I lost my glasses. ................>_<.................

sickness

Can't believe this. Wrote this loong entry about my sickness and it just gone. -_-

Anyway, I'm SICK SICK SICK. And I'm sick of being sick, I'm homesick, I just want mommy and daddys food and lie on couch watching tv. I'm sick of uni, sick of my room, sick of studying.

This week been busy busy. ONE WORLD WEEK, huge international event over the week, like arts, forum talks, shows, dances everything. Parties every night with different continent themes. I only went to monday and tuesday though, before I got really sick. Wednesday modelled for OWW Fashion show, as a part of Baobab (africans) and Saturday danced for the One World Party for the africans. In between I had a 24hr sleeping day with fever.

Been feeling generally down and like I-can't-move-2-metres-to-the-toilet-without-dying-of-weakness. Still managed to drag myself up on stage and perform, which is quite impressing. Although I probably had a high price to pay. We'll see how long my voice will be gone.............

Sickness makes you question the whole point of being single. Pourquoi?? I need guy to take care of me. This loneliness ain't pretty no more - El Perro del Mar