pre-zambia

okay, okay... so now i might have gotten finally a little little tint of fade shimmer of excitement. i still don't really feel like i'm going, but since there's a overpacked suitcase in the room, it's hitting me. i don't know though, i've never felt this UNexcited over a trip, this is definetly not the usual me. i blame it all on those stupid malaria pills, soon i'll probably be hallucinating things too. haha, they are like DRUGS.

anyway, just saying un dernier GOOD-BYE. Au revoir. Zai Jian. Auf Wiedersehn. Hola bye. i will be back in less than two weeks. you won't even miss me. and i will definetly not miss the snow.... (but my god everything else!!!)

love you all, hope i don't die of malaria, aids, cholera, carcrash, rhinos, falling down victoria falls, plane crash or whatever awaits me. FAREWELL! (off to see 24 :)

post-chinese test

I probably did the most stupid thing you could do today.

I was going to transfer pictures from my MEMORY CARD into the COMPUTER, then I though why shouldn't I FORMAT the MEMORY CARD? Now why my mind gave this little idea spark I do not know, perhaps it was because I read this photography book that you should format your memory cards. Anyway. So, then I clicked in the computer on a little button that says FORMAT. And woops my MEMORY CARD got FORMATTED. Yay.

Here comes the catch.
When I put the card back into the camera again, the camera wouldn't recognize it because the FORMATTING WAS WRONG!!! And, then, me, sweating, soon crying... ran for the instruction booklet thingy and guess what it says there?

WARNING! Do not format the MEMORY CARD in your computer, only format in the compatible blaba... camera.

Ha ha ha... so I screwed my 128MB memory card, and have no where to store my pictures from ZAMBIA. BUHU. I just don't understand WHY WHY WHY i had to format?? Sometimes the brain does weird things, it's the nerves... the same thing happens when you DELETE and CHANGE things that you can't ever get back. Computers suck too in this whole story.

No one comments on my entries... it feels lonely out here.

menstruation

i feel so utterly weird today. all tired and soggy sometimes, and okay others. stopped pills on sunday, so its been three days and i should get my period now!!!!! if it's not coming tomorrow i will be bananas. i wonder if it's because of the malaria pills and cholera stuff i took in the weekend. anyways, hormones are all fucked up, and i'm going to bed.

valentines

My eyes hurt. I'm so bored by the computer waiting for chinese to start, not being able to do any homework. Also, have no more interesting webpages to check, having gone through hotmail, ucas, and tabulas. I can't wait till I hear anything from anywhere, unis, jobs. I want to get this whole thing over with, I hate the waiting. Also, can't wait till I go to ZAMBIA next friday!!!!

So. Yesterday was Valentine's, which made the monday a little special, almost like friday. Which makes my being in school seem absurd. I think it's because too little sleep that my eyes hurt, it must be it. [So quiet in the library, all alone] Anyway. I went to JB's since ended before him, got him JellyBeans (obviously) and put our picture on his desktop with lots of post-its, macintosh is the coolest! He came home, we ate a little, then went to see Sandor/slash/Ida, a swedish teenage movie about love, which is totally too gross and absurd and fake for me. Couldn't stand it, don't know why, have a thing against fjortisar, tacky clothed and are so weak that they have to fit it-ish stuff. No really, can't people be a little more UNIQUE?! Pissed me off.

So julian was a little put off that i didn't like the movie, as it was his "surprise" (hahahah! which i had guessed out the day before!) and we walked in the cold weather to Sardin, pretty restaurant only 16kvm. [before that, i must say, i managed to throw a little snow n his face, couldn't help it. my apologies.] With tables that you have to pull our from wall so people can get in to sit. It was totally crammed, and jazz music streamed, and only one waitor. Roses had there step cut short to fit into the typical Littala KIVI candle light holders, very romantic. Food was amazing too, mixture of husmanskost with sweet asian spices. It didn't feel like a restaurant, more like a cafe/bar with people eating.

Now after sharing my wonderful last night ^_~ i should work on my french.

dylan thomas

At Julians. Should be writing my damn bloody ENGLISH ESSAY about you wonderful people in my little gang. All this should be in style of Dylan Thomas weird, very uberpoetic welsh fellow. So pretty mac computer wants me to just play around. Concentrate, concentrate... making fun of you people in a poetic way shouldn't be this hard!

Happy New Year!

Happy new year!

Ah, new year, new start... only been like two months since last new year but anyway. Chinese new year counts! Just got back from the Education section of Chinese Embassy celebrating the new year by watching Chun Jie Wan Hui.

Anyway, to the big news. New year and new identity. Not really new identity fine.. but anyway...

NEW NATIONALITY!!!! OMG, i can't believe i am now OFFICALLY a swede.

*groans* no more chinese pride.

okay, anyway, we got papers today "BEVIS" that we are swedish citizens. Yay for me. No more visas going to places, and money for england and new passport.

Wonderful way to start a Chinese New Year isn't it. By becoming swedish. Such irony.

Also stupid AMS sent back my Disneyland application because I was Chinese, they said i needed to be swedish. Well TODAY i am. Annoying people.

I'm swede, I'm swede, I'm swede...................................